MAD WALRUS HEART

Lulled to sleep by the possibility

Of the dark questions

Of knowledge and strength

Maybe I am not meant for this

The eyes and rejection can wait

They can wait for another day

When I am ready with a one two punch

But today I'm taking a break

Tomorrow comes with questions

And questions always eventually

Lead to answers and truth

Capability is not the issue

Proven self worth tugs at my heart

A dark past that haunts me

And yet my dark is lighter

Way lighter than most

And yet it weighs on my mind

So many thoughts concealed

And yet only half way

Why is truth so easily concealed

And why are answers so much

Harder than questions

I perhaps have found the light

And so I sleep with thoughts tonight

I wrap them in my arms

And hope to smother them

To silence their nagging proclamations

Of self worth and doubt

Tonight I lie in silence and peace

Perhaps I wrap up in slumber

And dream dreams of security

And yet maybe I am cursed

Top of the world, sitting here wishing
the things I've become, something is missing
Maybe I, what do I know?

Without it all, I'm chocking on nothing
Its clear in my head, I'm screaming for something
Knowing nothing is better then knowing it all
On my Own
On my Own

  If I fell in love with you
    Would you promise to be true
    And help me understand

    'Cause I've been in love before
    And I found that love was more
    Than just holding hands

 If I give my heart to you
    I must be sure
    From the very start
    That you would love me more than her

  If I trust in you oh please
    Don't run and hide
    If I love you too oh please
    Don't hurt my pride like her

    'Cause I couldn't stand the pain
    And I would be sad if our new love was in vain

  So I hope you see that I
    Would love to love you
    And that she will cry
    When she learns we are two

    If I fell in love with you

This is a song that I hold very close to my heart. It is by the Beatles....